The Good and the Bad

It's been a while since my blogging days, that is, Xanga. I've shut my Xanga down for a while now, for several reasons (such as unwanted stalkers!) and didn't think I'd ever need that outlet ever again.

I was wrong.

Many things have happened lately. Some good, some not so good.

Let's start with the "good". Well, my grades are still on the upside: A's and B's. Of course I'd like all A's, as any college student would agree, and sometimes I also feel like I'm not performing my best, but it is what it is. I try not to dwell on the what's-done, and focus on the what-to-do-now.

The bad stuff, I'd have to list.

1. My grandfather passed away last Monday and I didn't know until Tuesday, which was when my mom called to tell me. Of course she wasn't all that sad, since it wasn't her dad, and I wasn't really close with my grandpa either. I think my dad had it the worst. He had many sleepless nights, and many heated arguments with his siblings (my aunts and uncles) over things such as splitting funeral costs and the types of services and type of casket to buy.

2. On top of that, my dad just had his storage broken-into a week earlier, so he was already in a bad mood. This winter's going to be cold; I wonder how he'll get through this winter at the FM. Would thick coats and extra layers be enough?

3. Since my grandpa's funeral was going to held within a week of his death, I had to book a roundtrip flight immediately for this past Friday. The funeral was Saturday.

4. It was my first funeral. And besides the all-black attire and gloomy atmosphere, I hadn't had a clue what else to expect. Because my grandpa was Christian, the funeral included a Christian ceremony, which consisted of a Pastor, lots of praying, and song-singing. I did say I wasn't very close with my grandpa, but I couldn't hold back the tears as my uncle gave the eulogy. There were many things I hadn't known about my grandpa, such as the many struggles he went through and the many times people gave him contempt. I felt grief, felt regret, felt despair, but among all else, I felt respect for the man who laid ever so peacefully in that mahogany casket.

Oct. 13, 2008 -- R.I.P Grandpa, I love you

5. On my way back, Monday morning, I had planned for a 7:40 flight that would arrive in Buffalo by 9am and then make it just in time for my 9:45am Chinese 201 class. And I had boarded the plane 7:10, and the plane had even took off a tad early at 9:35. But just as we took off into the sky, there was some noise on the left wing and the pilot soon after told us we had hit a bird and we would have to turn back and land so maintenance could check up on the plane. After waiting way too long for that to happen, the pilot said we'd have to get all our stuff and switch onto another plane. We did. The next plane was set to leave at 9:40. I would definitely be missing my class. I called Kevin, who was picking me up later, to let him know about this delay.

I hate birds.

The good? Jetblue is giving me a $25 voucher for this inconvenience.

The bad? I missed my chinese quiz, and got an absence. || EDIT: chinese quiz was postponed! I was able to take it on time.

Despite the fact that it was for a funeral, I was really glad to have gone home. Three nights in my full-sized bed at home beats any week here at Buffalo. But alas, this is where I belong, for now at least. I might not have a grand-sized bed, good food to eat, or family/boyfriend here, but this is where I chose to study... University at Buffalo. It's my second year, so I'm almost halfway through. That's the good.

Alright, that's all for now. I've got a lot more on my mind, but my brain hurts from cramming for my MGQ201 test. Goodnight.